Blog what I like.
And Whats on my mind.
I’ve been having some issues for the past few weeks that have lead me to spend some time off social media for the most part. I started a new job which is wonderful. I have never had a job that I loved quiet like this. However I still continued to sink into a depressive state of being. I’ve become almost robotic. Auto response if you will. I’ve been feeling more and more stuck. More and more worthless. I’ve even gone as far as to wonder why does me being he matter? I pray for an end. I almost feel as if my life currently has no meaning. Honestly the only thing that has stopped me is that I don’t want someone to have to find me. I think I need to talk to someone. Like seriously talk to some one. Maybe get on medication. I’m told things get better and that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. A end to the fog. I pray that this is true. Till then I have to just keep at it. Hope it gets better before I get worse.
On days like today I wish my daddy still talked to me. I don’t feel like I have the support I need In life. I feel really alone.